maybe I'm a slacker

but at least I'm only a slacker with this blog. Now that my midterms are over (mostly -- I have another one in calculus of several variables right after Thanksgiving, but for the interim, I am done) I can express myself again!

Halloween night was fun, but not nearly as much fun as it should have been. We never made it to West Hollywood, something I'm still a little disappointed about, and I was pretty lazy with my costume anyways. Nobody took the incentive to get organized, which I guess is reasonable, we were all preoccupied with exams; the lack of organization caused very little to happen. I sort of invited myself to a friend's group, that probably wasn't the best plan either, but I didn't have a group of friends planning to go to WeHo so I just latched on to them. We cruised some apartment parties, the parties were fun, I'm not real sure why I didn't have more fun -- probably because I didn't really know anybody. That's really something I need to get past, I wish I could have fun at parties where I don't know anybody. I guess that's what alcohol is for! Alas, I did not drink on Halloween. That was another mistake. Regardless, I sort of made friends with a gay guy who went with us. I think I need to spend one more evening with him, in which we are still linked by at least one mutual friend, before I'd really say I'm friends with him. He's a nice guy (with connections) so hopefully it'll happen soon. He's cute, too. I'd date him, but I'd rather be friends with him.

I miss sauna boy! It wasn't just the sex, I liked spending time with him, and I miss kissing him. I'm not sure what to make of this, but mutual friends have told me that I'm similar to his ex-boyfriend. Weird coincidence? Probably not entirely. I messed around with another guy since then, a couple of nights ago, and it wasn't good. I'm pretty much never attracted to Asian guys, but I figured I'd try it anyway, just to see if I liked it, and I didn't. It just... wasn't good... he did not taste good, he smelled like sweaty Asian (I don't care how racist that sounds, it's a definite smell), and he wasn't sauna boy. My friends and I have been watching romantic comedies lately and getting depressed because we want boys. It's fun but it still leaves us sad. Haha at least we have each other; that's what friends are for: crying together over romantic comedies. I think I'll call him after a while, after it's been really long since I've seen him, long enough to say that I miss him without it sounding too attached/clingy/desperate. Maybe after I get back from Christmas break.

I've pretty much given up (for now) on the other boy. It's just not worth obsessing over. If fate brings us together, well, then things will be different. But I no longer expect something magic and wonderful to happen just because I bump into him between classes. After we've met, granted, it'll be convenient for me to say hi to him every other day... maybe I should keep working on it, I mean there are only a few weeks left of this term, after that, the chances of me seeing him three times a week are quite slim.

I'm so excited for this long weekend. We don't have class on Veteran's day, so it's a three day weekend, and I'm contemplating skipping tomorrow and just making it a four day weekend. Haha it was almost a five day weekend, but I'm not THAT much of a slacker, and today in my Russian class we were introduced to the past tense: it was a fairly important day. I really want to go down to San Diego for Saturday night, just to go to a club (Rich's) for something called Donkey Punch that Brent Corrigan wrote about on his blog quite recently, but I don't even know if those under 21 can get in... so I need to look into that. I don't know if I'll go or not yet, it's too soon to tell. Plus, I don't have a car (I could cheat and get a friend with a car to take me, but (a) that's less exciting and (b) it might be difficult convincing even a friend without a car to go), so I'd have to take a bus here to the Greyhound station, take that bus, then take a local San Diego bus to the club, and of course I wouldn't have anyplace to stay so I'd have to stay at the club until it closes then cruise places like IHOP until the sun comes up and bus service starts again, then try to remember how to get back..... but I love adventure!