quite the update

Tuesday night. I went back to the gym and I did not see sauna boy, but I was early, so I just hopped onto my bike and did my cardio, and he came by and found me! It was such a relief to not have to try and find him. I tried to gauge how long it would take him to do whatever it is that he does at the gym, and it turns out, I was right! When I walked into the lockerroom and started undressing, I saw him walk by, wearing one of those tiny gym towels that barely wraps around your waist, heading towards the sauna. I quickly joined him. Now, this was nice, because we already had met each other so we could just talk instead of having awkward sauna silence. Finally we introduced ourselves, which we admitted we should have done earlier. We just talked for awhile and generally bonded. Naked bonding time is always good. After the sauna, we went to go shower off, and he showered across from me a ways, but fate dealt me a good hand and his soap dispenser didn't work, so I got him to come over and shower immediately next to me since I had soap. More naked bonding time! When we both got dressed we didn't even try to cover ourselves up -- we were already comfortable naked in front of each other, very cool. During our walk back up the hill to our dorms, we had more conversation, there was no awkward silence, it was so nice. When it was time to part ways, I told him I'd facebook him.

I did. I gave him my phone number too. Wednesday night, I got the call. We agreed it had been fun just walking around and talking, so that was the plan for that night as well. I decided to bring a blanket just in case we would stop at somepoint during our walk. Of course, its not a very big blanket, so I knew that if we both got cold, we'd have to get REAL close to share it. We walked around campus for a while, and its really cool seeing a place normally heavily populated completely devoid of people, and I had never seen so much of campus at night -- we left at like half past midnight and were out for a while, so yeah it was late. Eventually we found nice secluded area with some benches in front of the Math/Sciences building. I was pretty much shivering after a little while, so we got really close, you know, to try and warm up. This led to that magical first kiss, it was so good too. Its so much better when you actually like the person. He told me I was cute and he liked me, I told him I liked him too. I just layed there with my head in his lap, smiling because I was so happy to be there with him, for a long time. It really was nice. The hot&heavy make out session in a somewhat public area was good too. We only touched each other's dicks briefly too, and it was perfect because I didn't want to go TOO fast; I like him. The fact that I had known him for a few days, was getting involved with him, and still hadn't sucked his dick is definitely significant -- its so cool that he's more than just a hook-up. It got to be like three in the morning, and we both had to be places in a few hours, so we walked back up to the dorms. I had an arm around his shoulders, he had an arm around my waist, for most of the walk back, it was so cute, and I LOVED not caring that people saw. I kissed him good night in front of the dorm; people probably saw that too but I again don't care -- I'm really enjoying how open I can be with my sex life here.

Thursday night I called him or he called me or I'm not sure, and we decided to go on another walk. This time, the walk was a little more direct, we didn't wander around campus as much. He showed me this place behind some tennis courts, totally clear yet still in nature so definitely a bit public, where there's a bit of a ledge overlooking the traffic on the road below, it was like right above dead man's curve, it was a great spot. We didn't talk as much that night before we were making out in the pine needles. We undressed each other (he unbuttoned my shirt with his teeth, it was impressive) and we had some fun. He's definitely uncut by the way, and I liked it, it was easier to jerk him off, and yeah I noticed foreskin when I was sucking him off, but it didn't get in the way or anything, its just cool and not as different as I expected. We didn't fuck, but we did everything else, and when we finally got off by jerking each other, there was soooooo much cum. It was really messy and we didn't really have any way of cleaning it up... so it was kind of gross, but still sexy. He unfortunately had to meet up with somebody after, so we couldn't spend too much more time together, but we again walked back to the dorms and I kissed him goodnight again.

He went home for the weekend, but he told me his roommate was moving out while he was gone, and he probably wouldn't have a replacement for a few more days. As of last night, fortunately, he didn't have a replacement roommate yet, so he invited me over so I could spend the night. We cuddled in bed together and watched Latter Days and some of Never Been Kissed. I hadn't ever seen Latter Days before, and if you haven't either, I highly recommend it. I recommend Never Been Kissed too, of course, but I'd recommend that to anybody, not just people who might read this. We were in bed together, so of course there was more fooling around, and it was again nice because it started slow. We had made out off and on during Latter Days, and we didn't really pay any attention at all during Never Been Kissed, so yeah, lots of making out before getting naked is a good warm up. Oh my god, the sex was so intense (we again didn't fuck which I'm happy about because I'm still a virgin and he hasn't pressured me at all) and there was cum everywhere again, but at least this time we were able to clean it up. After all of that we were able to just fall asleep with each other, holding each other, spooning, cuddling, occasionally kissing until we fell asleep. It was really nice waking up next to him. I hope we can go out on a date sometime soon, but its hard because I'm a student, he's a student who also works two jobs, which is why I usually don't see him until after eleven at night.

He said he'd call me today, but I have an eight in the morning class tomorrow and it might be nice to slow it down a bit, because I do like him. Its so incredible to have something that's lasted more than a few hours. I just hope he's not getting bored.. and will still be interested in me for a while. Is it weird that I keep thinking about what it'd be like if/when this affair ends? I don't want it to anytime soon, I obviously like him, but I mean I want to see what else is out there, and I don't think I want a long term relationship, but I still defintiely don't want to end things. Ugh this is confusing. I'm just going to try not to worry about it and just keep having fun with him for now. Its already lasted longer than anything else I've ever had so I guess it'd be a success even if it ended now, but I'd be deeply saddened. Whatever, everything is going well, I'm just paranoid. I'm sure we'll have more good times. I might even want to have sex with him, I think I'd be comfortable losing it to him, you know, if this lasts a bit longer.

What this means is at least for now I've put a hold on chasing the boy with the eyes that pierced my soul. I got to class early again so I could see him walk by, and again, I had nothing to say. Its really terrible, I wish I could talk to him. I didn't get a position in that club that he's in that I was trying to get into, I guess my interview didn't go as well as I hoped, but I can probably still volunteer and help out with the activities, and one way or another I am partying with those people dammit, because there are just too many cute boys, and I've seen how much fun all of those people have through pictures on Facebook, and I need to join them. I'm determined. I'll just have to put in a lot of time volunteering this year so that I can be even more active with them next year. I think I'll try to talk to him (again) on Wednesday -- I'm already involved with a guy, so I couldn't be more than friends with him for right now anyways, so I wouldn't even have to pretend like I'm not looking for sex with him, I'm actually not. I've gotta just go for it.

Wow, a lot has happened in the past week.