mexico

I'm going to Mexico this weekend!!! I've never been before and I'm pretty much really excited, largely so I can get some Coca-Cola Light. Originally it was a couple of my friends, but now its just me and this one guy from my floor (and his family), but yeah it's pretty exciting, I love going to places I've never been.

Also exciting, I did laundry yesterday for the first time in my life on my own. I didn't even ruin anything! Some of my whites are a little smaller though. So those FCUK boxer-briefs that I bought a size too small are now even snugger. It kinda hurts, but it makes my ass look good, so I'm not complaining.

Sauna boy hasn't called me yet :-(. It's been since Monday morning, and I know he works a lot, but its a little upsetting. I think I'm just going to call him tonight, because it's been long enough for it not to seem like I'm clingy and overly dependant. Plus I'm going to Mexico this weekend, so I can be like.. if you want to do anything, I can't this weekend, and don't be surprised if I don't answer because it's really expensive to use a cell phone out of the country. So yeah, I'd like to keep seeing him, maybe even go on a date because we never got to do that and he had mentioned dinner, but if he's done with me, fine, I'd at least like some closure. But I don't want it to be awkward either, that's critical. Ugh I really wish he would have called me by now, it's really disappointing. I spent so much today thinking about kissing him.

I'm making friends with this gay sophomore on my floor! It'll be good to have a gay friend who lives close by, you know, someone I can talk to about boys, etc. Talking to girls about it works but it's not the same, because gay boys and straight boys are also of course not the same.

I have several mutual friends with that other boy I like, the one I see every other day but can't seem to talk to. Its tempting to just have someone introduce us, but I think I'm going to hold off a while longer, I'd really like to meet him on my own. If I see him in some other situation besides the usual, at least now I have a conversation starter, I can ask him if he has physics in that auditorium and he'll of course say yes and then I can say that's why he looked familiar or whatever. I have a quick wit, I can totally build conversation from there, it's just those first words that are impossible.

EDIT::: I called him. I reached no conclusions from that phone call, except for that he's tired, presumably because of working so much, and I woke him up, whoops! He has his new roommate now. He was friendly on the phone though, there was a bit of conversation without too much awkward silence, seemed interested that I called and that I'm going to Mexico. I let him go back to sleep before too long though. I'm still emotionally frustrated, haha. At least he knows I'm still interested. We'll see what happens.