i saw him again last night

Walking to the gym last night, I gave sauna boy some more thought, and pretty much gave up on him. I decided that fate would bring us closer together if we're supposed to be. So then, after I finish changing, I walk out of the lockerroom, and there's sauna boy. It wasn't awkward, we made our talk, and then proceeded to work out. After working out, I met up with him in the sauna, and there were other people there so it would have been a little weird to talk, but it felt like the most awkward silence ever. Then this guy started flirting with him (poorly) and that just really pissed me off. All of the tension I tried to work off came back. It cleared out a bit, he went and showered, I did too, we weren't talking so there was just more awkward silence, and I got my stuff out of my locker and was going to start getting dressed. He walked by and was like "You're leaving??" and I said "Yeah.. I think I'm done." He said he was going back to the sauna for a little longer and I said I might as well too. After everybody else left the sauna I could talk to him and it progressively got less awkward, thank God, and then we showered again which was a little awkward because of the silence but I just pushed through it. Then we changed and left together and we could talk as we walked back and suddenly, it wasn't awkward anymore. Well, it was a little, but not too bad. We even stopped to get smoothies somewhere and just hung out for a bit. I guess we're friends now, which is cool. I'm still attracted to him though. But I got what I wanted -- my biggest fear was that I would see him at the gym and it we wouldn't talk, he'd avoid me, and it would be horrifically awkward. Last night was only temporarily awkward and we can still talk to each other. His birthday is in a few days... I told him happy early birthday because I probably wouldn't see him before then. Maybe I will anyways though. So it was all good except for that I was totally ready to hit the gym again after this! I like to go to the gym late so I can come back and be tired and sleep. That totally backfired, but I at least sort of have some closure.

I miss summer.